After much prayer and research we have finally made the decision and started the process of adopting our daughter from Ukraine. Our desire is a child younger than Eli. And boy, will he make a great big brother! He's very sweet toward the smaller children he's around. Just the other day, he gently stopped a 2 year old girl and helped her revelcro her shoe. Very sweet.
The decision wasn't as clear as our first adoption. I'm not sure why, but I don't have the same confidence in our decision...not that I think it's the wrong one, but I guess it's just different. This process isn't being rushed by us, that's for sure. The crazy thing is that we could have our dossier to the Ukraine by September and leave by the end of the year to adopt our girl! We are hoping it doesn't happen that fast (crazy, isn't it!), but it really could.
For me, as I look down the long road of obstacles I am overwhelmed and exhausted. What will we do with Eli? Do I make two trips? And as Dave and I look at our finances, we just laugh at the cost. We're still paying off our first adoption loan! And we have no money in savings anymore. There's really no place in our budget to cut down on; we have no subscriptions, no cable, because of the generousity of others we haven't had clothes to buy for Eli, and we certainly don't live an extravegant lifestyle! But we know that God is in control and that only He will be able to provide the money we need to adopt. So yet again, God will get the glory in adding to our family through the miracle of adoption.
I still have some feelings to work through, like why God has decided to make it so hard to add to our family...didn't we obey Him by adopting the first time (and I'm so glad we did!)? So where is this reward for our obedience?
The answer is clear. Eli, of course, is the reward for our obedience. His sweet and loving personality is a blessing daily. He now runs up to us and says "Need hug" or "Need kiss". And I stop what I'm doing and immediately oblige him. I mean, seriously, who could deny such a wonderful request?!
So as we embark on our newest adventure, we ask, no, beg for your prayers. Prayers for confidence, peace, and provision.
Thanks again for your support!